Hap-Hap-Happy Easter!

Wow! I cannot believe that it is EASTER already! And that classes end in like 2 more weeks. Life is insane.

Not much to update on. . but let me see what I can squeeze out.

First and foremost. . . I GOT MY HAIRCUT!! It's really short. I'll take some easter pictures and post them up in my next blog.

Also - me and my friend Josh have started our own youtube channel (because we are cool like that) and you should check us out! (That is, if our first video EVER uploads. . . ).

http://www.youtube.com/TheAmandaAndJoshShow


In other news, I still haven't decided what to do in the Fall. Should I go back to school? Should I just quit and start working? Ugh. Life is so complicated.

Anyways, I think that's all for now. Have a blessed Easter!!!

I Just Don't Understand It.

It's official - I suck at auditions.

I don't know what it is. I thought I did really well at my Triple Sensation Audition. I was almost sure I would get a callback.

And of course I didn't.

I don't know why I psyche myself out about these things. I mean, really, it's no huge deal. You win some and you lose some.

It just is a real blow to my confidence (since I already lack this in my life). Honestly, I don't think I've ever really had self-esteem or confidence when it comes to me performing, strangely enough. I never think of myself as good enough.

Maybe that's why my auditions blow. Because I show that I have this lack of confidence.

But who knows, really. Maybe this is just a way of God telling me that I'm not meant to be a performer. And that's a tough thought to actually realize and come to know.

Scary stuff.