My life updated. I think.

Hey guys!

Well, where to start? Firstly, I got my hair cut! Wooo! I usually go a whole year without cutting my hair....so it feels nice and short! Here's a pic (you can kinda see it):

Insane, is it not? Especially since my hair was past my boobs prior to this cut. I love it though, it makes me happy inside!

I also hope everyone had a splendid Valentines Day! I sure did. Jared and I went to eat at Subway (it's a tradition) and then we rented Bram Stoker's Dracula. (Such romantics, eh?) It was plain and simple and we had a great time.

As for other news...I'm auditioning for TUTS a week from today, and I'm still struggling on a second song to sing. Hmm...

What else.

OH YEAH

I'm going to go see Switchfoot tomorrow night! and then I'm seeing Tenacious D the next night. It shall be good times....I haven't been to a concert in a long time (I used to be a total concert junkie...until 2nd semester of college) so I'm really excited to be going to two in two days.

One last thing - I found out that my friend Candice is moving to LONDON for 6 months to live avec her papa. How jealous am I? Very.

Tootles.

Take My Picture, Charlie Brown.

I made a video for my cast of Charlie Brown the other day.


Sigh, memories.

Do you know what really Grinds my Gears?

Do you know what really Grinds my Gears?
-When people change who they are in order to please others.
-When you've worked really hard and long in theatre, and people who have had less experience get bigger roles.
-When there's no more chocolate chips in the cupboard to make chocolate chip cookies.


Hi All!

Hope everyone's well.
Well, I'm certainly not well - and neither is my family. We've all caught this ridiculous cold (except Mel) and it's really draining. I'm freezing silly right now and my head is all dizzy. Darn.

Other than that, I'm alright!!

I went to UBC last night for a little session about the school. I'm really excited about leaving Douglas and heading to a "big kid" school!! I'm a big kid now.

Also, I'm really excited about TUTS auditions. It'll be my first time auditioning, so it shall be an experience!!

Anyways, I'm starting to get too cold to type now, I'll write more later!

Tootles

Don't know what my title should be called woo hoo.

Since I'm waiting to recieve an email from my History Partner, I decided to blog.

Sunday was the Ovation Awards and I want to congratulate everyone who won!! I could not believe how much talent was in that room. It was great to be able to perform in Charlie Brown and Fiddler again - good times! I truly miss Charlie Brown though and it made me a little sad. Anyways, the night as a whole went quite well.

Right now I'm a pretty busy girl, with school, teaching, and CCO. I am now a part of CCO's leadership core team, which is super exciting, and we're already organizing our first event!! I'm also leading a faith study this semester, so I'm pretty excited about that!!

What else? I'm auditioning for Canadian Idol on Sunday because I'm cool like that. I auditioned last year and since I didn't get a callback for Triple Sensation, why not?? I figure it's always a good experience to go to as many auditions as you can, even if they're sort of ridiculous.

Hmm ... yeah life is pretty bleh right now. Once something exciting happens I'll let you know.

Tootles.

Happiness is finding a video.

This video makes me laugh and smile whenever I watch it.

It's from the CCO Vancouver staff. Each region had to make a little something for Rise Up and this is what they made. I Love Them!

OMG SOOO EMO!! Sorry.

1:06 AM:

Can't sleep.

I'm craving a female friend.

What does this mean??

It means I crave someone who I can have sleepovers with.
Who I can eat a whole carton of ice cream with while we watch The Notebook.
Who I can talk to about....girly things.

I miss being young.



I had my Triple Sensation audition today...
Let's just say it felt like utter crap.
I hate when auditions go not the way you wanted them to - they totally lower your confidence in performing (not like I have much left anyways).

Oh well.


Saw "The Pursuit of Happyness" with Will Smith after my audition.
I teared up.
A Lot.


Lately it seems like I'm doing things for no reason - like I'm losing motivation for everything I do.
It seems to me like I get this feeling quite a bit....almost too much.

I think it's because I go through these withdrawels and then I see my friends or other people having a tremendous time together in pictures and whatnot and it makes me feel like a bloody bad friend.

On a superbly good note = My Acting Class @ Douggie is amazing and I'm so glad to be taking it!!

Sorry if this blog is a downer - I really didn't expect it to be. I just let words flow out.

I'm such an emo lately.

I promise my next one will be filled with Joy and Happiness.

Because I'm going to "pursue my happyness" (hahahha, get it? get it?)

School Stress!

The past two days have been the most stressful this year. (Way to start a new year, stressed already!)

I had sent an email to the lady (Kathy) running my program at Douglas asking her what the next steps are for graduating. Yesterday I recieved an email from her saying that she didn't think I had enough second year courses.

Now, at my two years at Douglas, I have not taken any second year courses. ANY. So I check the Douglas website under the requirments for the Associate of Arts program. Under semesters III and IV, it said I needed to have 3 Second-year arts courses. That means I would need 6 altogether. Now, not having taken any second year courses, I began to panic. Not having these courses meant I was not eligable to graduate from Douglas, meaning I would not be able to recieve my diploma. I started looking up second year classes that I may be able to take this semester in order to graduate, and I was only able to take three. All the other second year courses required prerequisites in order to take the course, which I have not taken. So of course, I was freaking out.

Today I went to see her, because I had sent her an email advising me what to do, since I have not taken any of these 2nd year courses. She sent me an email about 5 minutes later saying I misunderstood her, and for me to stop by her office. So I did. It turns out exactly 6 of my courses transfer as 2nd year courses. I was so relieved!! Exactly six courses. She thought I had planned it like that, because the courses I took were so random. She said that most 1st year English courses don't transfer as 2nd year courses, but I was lucky enough to have chosen some to transfer as 2nd year ones.

All I can say is that God was definitley on my side for this one!

So now all the stress is gone off my back and I am completley relieved that I am eligable for graduation after this semester. Woo!!

As for the rest of it, classes are going swell. I had my first Acting class this morning, and I'm super excited about it. I think it'll really help the acting portion on the triple threat scale. Now all I have to do it take some dance classes at Harbour to keep my dancing in shape and I'll be good to go for Triple Sensation!

Speaking of Triple Sensation, does anyone happen to have a comedic female monologue under 2 minutes that they would think would be good for me?? It doesn't HAVE to be comedic, but I figured since I'm mainly a comedic actor I should show my main strength!!

WOO.

I'm Home!!

Oh my word.

Words cannot even describe the past week I experienced. There's so much to tell!

I'll only tell you the highlights - everything was sooo good, we'd be here forever if I told you guys everything!

I got on my flight with my friend Kerry the morning of the 27th. We arrived in Ottawa, not knowing anything. We didn't know who was picking us up, where we were staying, or even where the bus was meeting the next day to get to Quebec!! Luckily, Kerry went to the washroom, and on her way back she saw this guy holding up a sign saying "CCO Canada" on it. Boy, God is good!

We arrived at the Regier's who are the FOUNDERS OF CCO. We got to stay at their house for the night. What a privledge. They are wonderful people with 5 kids.

The conference itself was absolutley amazing. I learned so much about my faith - the Catholic faith - and I am so proud and blessed to be a Catholic! All the people there were the nicest people I have ever met - not one was snooty or thought they were above someone else. It was sooooo great to be around people of the same mind set.

We were blessed to have the Arc of the New Covenant in our presense (see the above picture). The Arc of the New Covenant is a symbol made by young people in preperation for the Eucharistic Congress that is to happen in Quebec City in 2008. It is rich in symbolism and in meaning.

On the 3rd night of the conference, this Arc was one of the turning points for me. We were each given a piece of paper and a pencil, and on that piece of paper, we were to write down a name of someone who we were to commit to in helping them seek the Lord. After writing their name on a piece of paper, we were given a charm for a necklace of the crucifix (blessed by the Pope!) to give to them. Then we were to walk up to the Arc, say a prayer for the person, and drop their name into the Arc. Wow. It was so deep and a very emotional night for me.

Another emotional night for me was the night before, where we participated in Eucharistic Adoration, as well as the Sacrament of Reconcilication. I hadn't gone to confession in years. I knew this was my chance to cleanse myself of my sins. I had put it off before because I found it stupid to be going to a priest for forgiveness, but now I know why. I was also putting it off because I was scared that the priest would judge me for my sins and for not being to confession in years. But, I gathered up all my courage after praying for a very extremley long time. I sat next to the priest, and as I was about to say my sins, I started bawling my eyes out. The priest was very patient and understanding, and he did not judge me at all. It was amazing.

Another amazing experience was on New Years Eve. We got to go to mass in the old Cathedral in Old Quebec. Inside was breath taking, as you can see from the pictures.

Over 400 Young People did a procession before the mass to the cathedral. We stopped outide the gates of old Quebec, lit candles, and then parted (like the sea) to allow the Eucharist to enter between and and then lead us to the church. Nuns were running to their windows to see the Eucharist, and people were running out of shops. It was so....i can't even describe it. When we went into the church someone did a count - and about 50 people who were not a part of our group followed us into the church!!

After the mass, we all ran back to the Hotel to get ready for our New Years Banquet and Dance! That was sooooooo fun.
Think about it this way....people dancing and having the time of their life sober and clean from drugs. At midnight, after saying Happy New Year and giving hugs to strangers around you, you sing Praise and Worship to the Lord. What a way to start off a new year!

Here are some pictures of New Years Night!!

Me and my friend Lisa!!

Me, Lisa, Mike, Sarah, and Brock.





Praising and Worshiping at Midnight:

This was one of the best experiences of my life.

Here are a few more fun photos in general of Quebec, Ottawa, and some from the conference!

Me and my friend Brian Bird (who is the lead singer from Jared's band!)

Rob. He was the speaker for the Opening Session (and I have the honour of having him be on staff for CCO at Douglas!)

Me and an odd Jester Statue in Old Quebec. (I made really good friends with him!)

The View from my room!!

These are just tidbits.

Thanks to all of you who told me to go for it. It was a life changing experience!!!

Happy Birthday, Jesus! (and Happy Christmas, everyone!)

Well everyone, I can't believe that Christmas time has come and gone so fast! I hope everyone's Christmas was spent with their loved ones, and that everyone's safe and healthy. I know that I am truly blessed to have such a supportive, heart-warming family!!

Next up for me - Quebec City! I absolutley cannot wait. Seriously - whyy does time go by sooo quickly?? I haven't the slightest clue. Anyways, I haven't really started packing yet (yikes), so tomorrow's going to be a busy day for me.. I hope I'm able to do it all tomorrow, as my flight leaves the next morning at 8:50. Woo.- I have to go out and buy a few things for my trip, pack my things, and then head over to Jared's for a little dinner his mom is doing "as a celebration of me leaving and a goodbye party". But mostly just a Christmasy dinner so I am able to spend the day with Jared and his fam before I depart.

Speaking of Jared and departing.... he got me a suitcase for Christmas! How spoiled am I??

Anyways, I better start getting semi-organized before I head to bed. Since I probably won't be talking to most of you until the New Year, have a Happy New Year!

Much Love!

It's the most wonderful time of the year... jerks.

Tuesday:

Went Christmas caroling at the UBC hospital with Jared and his sister and her friends. The elderly people there really appreciated us coming out and singing a few tunes - we may go back again!

Went for a wonderful dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory in Gastown with Jared and his family. When we walked back to his truck - there was his passenger window smashed to bits. My backpack of clothes (including my fave brown sweater and my I heart NY pajama pants....not to mention my crappy but reliable mp3 player) and Jared's 2 backpacks of stuff and some Cd's.....stolen.

Here are a few pics of this WONDERFUL, AMAZING incident.

It's just so frusterating that people have to do these things....let alone at Christmas time. Now Jared will have to pay for a new window - I just hate people right now.

That was my LOVELY experience of the day.

Dancer?

For some reason I really want to choreograph a solo for myself and perform it at some sort of show. Or choreograph any number that I would also perform in! I think it would be really fun, and interesting!!

I was thinking about it - about entering a dance competition with a dance number solo or duo and seeing what happens with it!

It's a pretty random thought, but I think it would be really super!

Anyways, what is up with this odd weather?! The wind was so strong that there are so many power outages everywhere! Oh well.

Christmas is coming soon (yay) and 2 days after I'm off to Quebec.

Anyways, that's all for now, really.

Byye

Dooo Daa....Life.

I am so utterably, unconditionally excited for Quebec City!! I think even a little more excited than Christmas!

I guess I'm mostly excited because this is my first big trip by myself!

And This Picture Above is where I'll be staying - The Hilton in Old Quebec!!
And for what price for 4 nights? $54!! That's right.....that includes my conference fee. I'm so blessed!!

I'm booking my flight tomorrow.....I'm leaving the 27th and coming back on the 2nd.....not that it should matter to anyone....

I hate to say it, but it'll be so nice to be away from home for awhile. I think it's exactly what I need. I think I need to go away and make some new, fresh friends whom I can have a different relationship with - one where I have my faith in common with them.

As for other news,

1) I finished 2 exams, and I have 2 more to go!! I got a little tired from studying, so I decided to come write here.
2) I still haven't gone Christmas shopping yet, and I still don't know what to get anyone!
3) Saturday is the last day of Classes until the new year for Lindbjerg! And it's a Pajama Day!! WOOO HOO!
4) I went to go see "The Holiday" with Cameron Diaz, Jack Black, Kate Winslet and Jude Law on Saturday Night with my two good friends from high school. It was an amazing movie (I strongly suggest it!) I almost cried so many times during it, but surprisingly I held it in (I would have felt like an idiot being the only one crying).... IT WAS SOOOO CUTE! If anyone wants to see it, I'll gladly go see it again!

Also, it was nice to see Sam and Candice - the only two people who actually care about me and my life and hang out with them... since i haven't seen them in forever.

Anyways, I think that's all on the mind right now....I better go do some more studying!

Happy Christmas!!

Can I get a WOOT for procrastination!?

Procrastination. What a disgusting thing. Right now I should be studying for my 2 exams I have tomorrow....but am I? Nope. There's always an excuse I make to not do what I'm actually supposed to be doing. Oh well.

As for Quebec City - I've decided that I am going to go! I'm really excited! Thanks everyone who gave me their input. I appreciate it, greatly.
Now the trouble is:
1)Raising the money I need so I can actually go.
2)Finding a flight with someone so I won't have to fly by myself.
I'm really excited because I haven't been on a plane since I was 8 years old! I think this is going to be totally worth it.

As for other news, I have none. Except that I desperately miss certain people and I really really need to hang out with them soon before I head into friendship depression mode. Yuck!!

To go, or not to go?

In some of my earlier blogs I mentioned an event that I was considering going to: RISE UP.

Rise Up is a Conference that a group I'm in (Catholic Christian Outreach aka CCO) has every year. This year, it is in Quebec.

Basically, It's a 5 day conference, filled with worship, praise, workshops, masses, and a big New Years Eve Bash. There are usually about 400 people there - most post secondary students involved with CCO.

I'm really struggling deciding whether I should go or not.

I want to go beacause I've never been to Eastern Canada before, and I think it would be an amazing experience. My bible study leader, Amber, told me that she'd seen me grow in my faith a lot more this year, and she thinks it would be a good year for me to go. I also want to go because I'll grow even more in my faith with Christ and I'll get to meet some amazing people.

The reasons I don't want to go is because I'll be away from family and Jared during New Years - and that I don't have the money to go. A plane ticket there and back is $900.

Amber said that all I would need to raise for this would to be at least $300, and the rest CCO would cover because she really wants to see me there. She says that if I do really want to go, that God will provide the rest of the money for me.

But I've been having this feeling like I'm not ready to be going, like I shouldn't be partaking in this quite yet.

I don't know what to do - money wise, I'd be fundraising and asking people for money, and I HATE doing that because I feel terrible about asking people for money, especially during Christmas time.

I have to give Amber an answer by tomorrow whether I'm going or not.


Someone, please help!! ASAP!

Thanks.

-Amanda

Theatre Survey! (Stolen from Danjiel who Stole it from RM)

LAST SHOW ADDED TO YOUR RESUME: Fiddler on the Roof

LAST SHOW YOU AUDITIONED FOR: Anne of Green Gables

DID YOU GET IT: Yes.

LAST SONG YOU USED AT AN AUDITION: "I Will Be Loved Tonight" - I love you, You're Perfect, Now Change.

FAVORITE THEATRE (VENUE): Tough one. I'd have to say The Act in Maple Ridge. Or Centennial theatre (NOT THE SCHOOL!).

FAVORITE MUSICAL: Into The Woods.

FAVORITE PLAY: Midsummer's Night Dream.

FAVORITE ROLE YOU'VE PLAYED, AND FROM WHAT SHOW? Lucy - YAGMCB

FAVORITE ROLE OVERALL THAT I WOULD LOVE TO PLAY: Eliza Doolittle in My Fair Lady or Belle in Beauty & the Beast.

SUPERSTITION: Macbe.....

LAST PART YOU PLAYED IN A SHOW: Hodel.

YOUR GOAL IN SHOW BUSINESS: "Give my regards to Broadway..."

FAVORITE DIRECTOR: Peter Jorgensen.

WHAT WAS YOUR VERY FIRST SHOW?: Technically, The Best/Worst Christmas Pageant Ever.

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DANCE SOLO?: Yep.

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SINGING SOLO? Yep.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN THE LAST PERSON TO TAKE A BOW? Well, yeah...with Darren in Into the Woods.

NAME A SHOW YOU'VE DONE MORE THAN TWICE? Anne of Green Gables.

HAVE YOU BEEN TO NEW YORK? No!

HAVE YOU BEEN TO LA?: Yes.

WHAT'S THE SCARIEST PART OF AN AUDITION?: Singing - trying to work with a brand new pianist.

WHAT'S THE BEST PART OF AN AUDITION?: Callbacks!

NAME A SHOW YOU WOULD NEVER DO AGAIN: Meet Me in St.Louis.

NAME A SHOW YOU COULD DO FOR YEARS: You're a Good Man Charlie Brown, or Fiddler.

NAME A PERSON YOU'D LIKE TO WORK WITH AGAIN: Toughy. I'd say that lovely Tse couple - they're swell!

HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN PERFORMING?: Started dance when I was 6 so....13 years??

DO YOU CARRY YOUR HEADSHOTS AROUND WITH YOU? No.

DO YOU KEEP IN TOUCH WITH PAST CAST MEMBERS?: Most!

ON A SCALE OF 1-10, HOW IMPORTANT IS GETTING PAID?: 4.

WHAT IS YOUR MOST MEMORABLE PERFORMANCE? The Friday od YAGMCB when Bill Millerd came...

SOMETHING EMBARRASSING OR UNEXPECTED THAT HAPPENED TO YOU WHILE ON STAGE?: When Joel spat a pickle onto my shirt.

WHO IS THE MOST DIFFICULT PERSON (ON STAGE OR OFF) THAT YOU HAVE EVER WORKED WITH?: I don't know...

EVER BEEN NAKED ON STAGE?: No.

WHO OR WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST INSPIRATION OR INFLUENCE?: Julie Andrews.

BEST PROFESSIONAL SHOW(S) YOU'VE SEEN: Wicked. By far.

BEST COLLEGE SHOW(S) YOU'VE SEEN: The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe at Cap.

BEST COMMUNITY SHOWS: Not sure.

BEST HIGH SCHOOL SHOW(S) YOU'VE SEEN: Not sure.

ONSTAGE, HAVE YOU EVER...BEEN KILLED?: Yep, in Hair.

BEEN DRUNK?: Yep, Chicago.

PLAYED SOMEONE HALF YOUR AGE?: Yep, Lucy.

PLAYED SOMEONE TWICE YOUR AGE?: Yep, Aunt Eller.

CRIED? Yep, Fiddler.

FIRED A GUN? Oklahoma.

DRIVEN A CAR?: No.

BEEN DRENCHED?: No.

BEEN IN A DREAM SEQUENCE?: No.

BEEN KISSED?: NOPE.

Une Questionne

Do you ever have so much thought and emotion built up inside of you, but you just don't want to tell anyone?

A Poem of True Thought

Sometimes I wonder
who will rush to my side
if I were to end up in the hospital.

Will these friends,
these "friends"
Come to me
Save me from my grief?

Save me.
From my grief.

Will the people I look up to

look up to

come, see and support me?

Sometimes I feel as though I'm alone
in that hospital.

Alone.
Dying.
Without anyone to see.


Whoa, depression poem much.
Sorry, felt like being poetic.

PS - As much as I love this snow I hate now I'm so isolated!

Long, Pointess to most, not to me.

I really should be writing an essay right now comparing Helen from Martin McDonagh's The Cripple of Inishmaan, and Janice from Shanley's Italian-American Reconciliation, but I have too much on my mind, so I decided to write here.

Firstly, Fiddler is over. I cannot believe it. I hate when shows end - I always feel so glum for the first few days. This show was one of the best I've been in, and it makes me sad that it's over already. I don't know what I'm going to do now - probably sulk around, looking at pictures and watching the video. I just want to thank everyone who was involved with Fiddler, or who even came to see the show. It was an amazing experience and I'll never forget it.

Now I just feel like I have nothing to do with my life, but I'm sure it'll pass soon enough - just have to get back into the routine of having no show in my life at the moment (besides Anne).

What else? School ends in a week, and then I have four exams and I'm done. It's flown by really fast - it astounds me.

It seems like a lot of things are ending lately: shows, schools.....friendships.

I called my old friend Rhianna on Saturday because it was her 19th birthday, she didn't seem too thankful that I called. I'm sure she was just busy, but it just made me feel like a hunk of junk - like I don't have anyone from school to lean on anymore. Actually, the only person I can really, really lean on is Jared, who I'm so grateful for. I feel sorry for the poor guy though, he gets all my attitude and complaints. It seems like he doesn't mind though. He knows that all my school friends have gone their seperate ways.

As for theatre friends, well- being in musical theatre, we're all busy people, so I don't really feel like burdening them with my sorrows.
Plus... I'm not close to them like I was to my school friends, or to Jared. Sure, we're close....but.....I can't explain it....
I don't really talk about my personal, personal feelings to any of my theatre friends. I've always felt like an outcast at times compared to them. I see a bunch of my theatre friends who are so close and tell each other anything. The only person like that for me is Jared.

I know most of this probably doesn't make any sense at all, because I'm splurding out thoughts.

Another thought - CCO (Catholic Christian Outreach) has this thing called RISE UP every year, which is a conference they do around Canada. This year it is in Quebec City, and I soo very badly want to go, but I can't afford it. They suggested findraising, but I just haven't had the time, and the registration form is due this week. I know I'm going to regret not going - but I guess there's always next year.

Do you ever feel like crying but you just can't? I hate that. Like I said, I'm feeling this way because the show is over, and I'll be fine in a few days, it just stinks to feel this way.


I'm not looking for any sympathy, because I know these feelings will pass. Just needed to write out some thoughts...

C'est la vie.

What Else?

So I registered for my last semester At Dougie. Can you believe it? It's my last semester, already! Insane! I'm taking some pretty random classes, but some pretty sweet ones too:

English - Studies in Fiction
Creative Writing - Intro to Writing Fiction
Humanities - New Religious Movements
History - World History since 1945
and and and and................
Performing Arts - ACTING FOR THE STAGE!

Woot! Finally an acting class!! I'm pretty stoked.
______________
What else?
Well - I had lost my sheet music binder. But then I realized that even though Joel said he gave it back to me he didn't! Pfft. But I have it now and it's all good.

What else?
My freakin car won't start :(. Apparently the starter is broken (go figure). So now I either have to geta ride to shows or take my sister's car until it's fixed.

What else?
I'm so sad that Fiddler is ending this week. I love the cast - there's so many amazing people and I truly will miss them. It's totally been an uphill journey for my musical theatre experience - that's for sure.

What else?
My mom got back from NYC on Monday and she got me and Mel: I (heart) NY .........PAJAMA PANTS! They are the coolest. And we got those things for keys that can go around your neck - I forget what you call them - with New York written on them. Pretty sweet stuff.

On another note - I have not gone Christmas shopping yet, and I have NO idea what to get ANYONE! It's so hard shopping for other people, and I hate it.

Anyways, that's about it.

Ta ta

Non-Theatre Friends.

Another two days off.

I can't believe that this is going to be the last week of Fiddler. I'm going to miss it tremendously!

Well, Saturday night Jared and his family came to see the show, and they absolutely loved it!! Jared said he may even come again!

Anyways, I really wanted to write today because I've been thinking a lot about my non-theatre friends lately. It makes me so sad that I'm not as close to them as I once was. And what astounds me still, is that after 9 years of musical theatre, some of them still don't understand that Musical Theatre is my life, my passion...musical theatre is what makes me who I am. It also saddens me that most of them just think that every show i'm in is just another show and they make the excuse that it's too expensive. TOO EXPENSIVE?! Do you know how much professional shows are? $21 is NOT bad at all! And as for it being just another show - it's not. If you truly cared about me and wanted to be supportive, you'd come see every one of my shows, because that's who I am. Every show is different, has different characters etc, so how can it be just another show!? So you're saying if I got into a Broadway show you wouldn't come see it because it was just another show and too expensive. That's how I see it.

Anyways, that's my rant. That's why i want to hang out with my theatre friends more - because they know what it's like and they'll support me no matter what.

Yeah, that is just how I have been feeling lately.